but also I've never been lonelier than a relationship i don't wanna be in. i don't want to reproduce. what's more meaningful?a bird in the cage or a bird that flies away every day and comes back just because they like being birds with u? because for a lot of us, we feel isolated in the whole life I'm not a natural.standup traumady shows 電擊手表??媽的我想哭

there's something wrong with me.i won't show myself any kindness.i won't give myself any grace.i just attack myself endlessly like it was my job.i would love to stop.

plz. let it be enough.

所有都是我想說的，所有都是我喜歡的。

從《三個麥克風》專場開始知道尼爾·布倫南，覺得形式挺特別，沉重悲傷中夾雜著輕松和戲謔。

這個新專場以為是他依次拿起背景板上的道具講相關段子，沒想到最后舞臺上的燈一暗 ，側邊打來一束光，道具形成了一張臉的側影，這個設計挺驚艷的，不過結尾氣氛略微沉重，果真是創(chuàng)傷喜劇。

雖然沒有讓我爆笑，但很多視角都很細膩獨特。另外好像今年出新專場的單口演員都多少提到了yq。

"Individually, these things are all manageable, you know?

But it’s…

In totality, that’s the hard part.

That’s where the depression comes in.

And I’ve tried so much stuff.

Like, so much.

Therapy, medication, ketamine.

…

I think I went too far…with that one.

Like, I think I hurt myself a little bit.

Yeah, but I guess it makes sense if you’re looking for a magic bullet,

occasionally you’re going to get shot.

But I just kept thinking like,

“Dude, how did you turn self-help into self-harm?”

I’ve been saying all night that something’s wrong with me.

And something is wrong with me.

I won’t show myself any kindness.

I won’t give myself any grace.

Like, I just grind and attack myself relentlessly like it’s my job.

I would love to stop.

I like to believe that my ways of being,

like my thoughts, my habits, my emotions, my beliefs…

I’d like to believe that they’re not defects.

I’d like to believe that the alchemy of a personality…

my spirit…it’s gotta be enough.

Please.

Let that be enough."

帶上塑料眼睛，我太喜歡了。

這樣的瘦瘦的中年單身男子，我太愛了。

“我都瘦稱一道閃電了，當然必須是liberal了?！?/p>

很認真很認真的聽完了他說的每個段子。形式非常優(yōu)秀，每個主題都用block的形式呈現。不過好像沒有怎么講hashtag? 決定什么時候再來看一遍。哪天有空就他說的每個主題來講講我的感受。愛人的母親也有抑郁癥，治療了好幾年都沒有太多好轉，體重卻增加了很多。

慕名找來三個麥克風來看，更喜歡那一場的表現形式多一點，奇怪但是卻很和諧的把oneliner, standup跟ted talk結合到一起來了。

講他的原生家庭，講他的抑郁癥，輕松帶著一絲沉重。這個世界那么多憂患，首先要做多的應該就是跟自己和解吧。