If I should stay,
I would only be in the way.
So I'll go, but I know
I'll think of you every step of the way.

今天把下了很久的洛神看完了，看到最后很有淚點。也才有些時刻真正懂了 上面的這一段歌詞。

她不想淹沒他一生的才華，所以不和他在一起。即使深深的傷心欲絕，仍然選擇了不在一起。曹操說：你要擇的是夫君，我要擇的是良君。而世上女子只有你能母儀天下，所以要她嫁給那個明君。她不是因為曹操的話，而是因為深知不顧一切的出走對他的一生對他的才華所造成泯滅。胸懷仁義卻不能夠普及蒼生，所以她放手了，然后告訴他，這輩子我只能是你的大嫂。

他成婚，取了一個到最后都用命愛著他，雖然做著很多不經(jīng)頭腦的事但最后一心一意愛著他的人。她成婚，嫁給了一個愛著她，但是在歲月里卻沒有實現(xiàn)諾言，被權利欲望，被甜言蜜語所左右，最后負了她一生，要了她命的人。

他永遠都愛著她，她最愛的也是他。只是她選擇了不和他廝守的時候，愛情成了彼此的仰望。每次繁華之后，她和他在花園偶遇，稱呼著大嫂，三弟，說著當下的事情。他失去了她的妻子，在他要開始真正地去愛這個妻子，愛這個家的時候。然后他們就開始了長久的分離，每次相見，禮數(shù)之下，卻是永遠不能言說的愛戀和等待。他看她成了皇后，卻再沒有當初那一份開心。

她嫁給了那個曾經(jīng)信誓旦旦說不怕你容顏老去的人，不是因為多愛他。因為她的心中早已經(jīng)做出了抉擇。然而她是這樣一個恪守的女子，他也是。所以不再邁出一步。她難產(chǎn)，只是每每相聚，難有這樣的知己述說心愁。每每分離，眼中無限的傷痛依戀無人可說。他喪妻，帶著孤子遠赴他處，再回來，卻是父親亡忌，她做說客阻攔兄弟相殘生靈涂炭。于是再分離，在最后，他終于失去了她。還有那個負了她一生的她的夫。

一誤誤終生。她不知道有沒有后悔后。她只知道嫁了人，相夫，教子。卻一次次被夫所傷，當說出夫妻情分已盡的話時，就只剩了保全兒子這最后的心愿。

直到最后天人相隔。他帶著一生的眷戀，帶著玉枕走了。不知是否回想起當初愛慕而生而千里追尋，不知是否回想起她當初答應求婚的那一抹笑和羞澀。她鼓勵他關心兒子，重整信心那心痛。只是到了最后，年華已逝，垂垂老矣，去見了她的兒子，然后再悄然落幕。

他走在河岸，看著她劃船而至，說，你來接我了。然后走去。

《洛神》（Where The Legend Begins）是2002年香港電視廣播有限公司制作的27集古裝電視劇，由梅小青監(jiān)制，蔡少芬、馬浚偉、陳豪、郭羨妮主演。該劇講述了被譽為當世三大美人之一的甄宓，因外貌出眾，神采飄逸，而令她不由自主地一生于情海中飄蕩，亦悲亦喜 。
蔡少芬在里面是在是太驚艷了，真 ·仙女。她在該劇中很好地理解了角色，演得很有神韻。舉止、言辭，乃至她內(nèi)在的氣質(zhì)，都把中國傳統(tǒng)女性的智慧和嫻熟表露無遺。最令人印象深刻的一幕是她在曹植作七步詩時的神態(tài)，欲哭還笑，欲笑還哭，把亂世中的無奈表現(xiàn)得淋漓盡致。馬浚偉和陳豪飾演的曹丕和曹植，也是我最喜歡的一版。兄弟相殘，姐妹宮心，就連最后的溫情戲也是經(jīng)過滿滿的算計，將三國時的爾虞我詐體現(xiàn)的淋漓盡致。

What, when, where and who ?
This story is base on the the parts in the very famous Chinese novel "The Romance of the Three Kingdom". The story focuses on one of the kingdom, the Cao family. Ada Choi plays the character Yun Fok, who is a real life historical person. Due to her intelligence and her beauty, everybody wants her, including Cao Cao, Cao Zhi and Cao Pi. Also, because of she is way too perfect, she has a very tragic story... Steven plays Cao Zhi, who is a very intelligence son of Cao Cao, but he is way too kind, so that Cao Cao could not give his power to Steven, instead, he gives his power to the oldest son Cao Pi (played by Moses). Cao Pi is more cruel than the others, that's why Cao Cao wants Ada to marry Cao Pi to help him, and advise him. However, Ada and Steven were deeply in love, but for Steven's protection, Ada had to marry Moses instead... Sonija plays the most evil person you can ever imaging, she gets jealous about everything Ada has. She thought Ada is always on top of her. Sonija plays many tricks and finally got Moses' attention and soon becomes Moses' second wife. Later, Sonija causes many people's death and even tries to get rid of Ada...

I thought this series is pretty close to the history, because I know lots of the characters, and lots of the small stories in here, it reminds me a lots of things related to "The Romance of the Three Kingdom", which is my favorite Chinese classical novel.

THE FACTORS ?
- Hate Factor
?Let's start with the character you will hate to the bone: Sonija Kwok's Kwok Hsuan ?
This is about the worst character you can ever imaging! Kwok Hsuan is not only evil, she is also cruel, ugly, and stupid! First of all, she like Steven, but Steven rejected her because Steven is in love with Ada. Kwok Hsuan gets really jealous and mad, and tries to get the second brother's attention. However, the second brother falling in love with someone else. Later, Kwok Hsan started to get Moses' attention, and uses tricks to marry Moses and becomes his second wife. Kwok Hsuan caused many people's death, such as the prostitute XiXi, Steven's wife, Steven's teacher, and Ada. I think her ending is way too nice, she should suffer a lot more than just illness.

Second, the famous evil guy from the history, Sima Yi ?
You might hate this character very much, because he basically changed Moses, and makes him become very cruel. However, Sima Yi himself is not as cruel as Kwok Hsuan, he is just very ambition, he wants to help Moses become the king, so that he can easily take over. I didn't think he was that bad when I read "The Romance of the Three Kingdom", but in this series, you will hate this character because of his ambition. In the real history, his son Sima Zhao is the more evil one.

- Love Factor ?
Ada Choi
?I think Ada gave her best performances in this series! However, her character is such a tragic (you will know why when you read further). I think Ada is the best at playing tragic characters, because she can cry really well! Have you notice most of her characters are really tragic? And, the people around her character is most likely to turn evil! For example, Louis Koo in ATE II, Nick Cheung in Secret of the Heart and in this series, it is Sonija Kwok. Poor Ada, she has to face all these terrible facts!

Steven Ma ?
Steven Ma was really good in this series as well. His character is also very tragic because he is too kind and too smart, just like Ada. I didn't like Steven Ma before, but after this series, I will start to pay more attention to him, because he can act and cry really well.

- Pity Factor ?
To all the characters who died in this series, this is the section contributed to you... ?There are lots of pity factors and lots of emotional scenes in this story, especially towards the end, the characters started to die one after another.

Let's begin with the prostitute Xi Xi (played by Kei Kwan Gu) ?
At the beginning, Cao Cao's first wife did not like Ada at all, so she bought this very beautiful and talented prostitute named XI XI The first wife plans to use XI XI to get Cao Cao's attention, so that Ada will be ignored. However, XI XI and Ada becomes great friends. XI XI has a very good voice, but she also has an illness that could destroy her voice. So, she tried to protect her voice really well. That's why she often rejected Cao Cao and refuses to sing to him, that makes Cao Cao really mad. Sonija uses this chance to let somebody else to learn from XI XI and tries to replace XI XI So, Cao Cao killed XI Xi's voice because he felt XI XI is not useful anymore! Poor XI XI, her life is depends on her voice, now her voice is gone, so she suicide!

The second character who died is Yang Suo ?
Yang Sui is a very famous person, his death is really famous, too. He is very intelligence, he can guest what Cao Cao is thinking, and he is always right. However, because of his intelligence, Cao Cao wants him dead, and the excuse Cao Cao used was the chicken ribs, that's why it makes Yang Suo's death really famous. Poor guy, he is too smart, but he died because of the chicken ribs! Ok, here is what happens: there is once, Cao Cao did not want to fight in the war, so he uses "chicken ribs" as his military order. Yang Suo knew Cao Cao will not fight the war, because of his military order. (The chicken ribs' taste is not tat great when you eat it, but if you throw it away, you will feel pity, in this case, Cao Cao was not sure if he wants to fight the war or not, so he uses chicken ribs as his order.) Yang Suo knew about Cao Cao's thinking so he tells others don't have to get ready for the war, that makes Cao Cao really mad, and he uses that excuse to kill him!

The third one is Steven's wife Cui Fok ?
You will probably not enjoy this character at the beginning, because she is not that nice. But, after she married to Steven, she changed a little. Cui Fok loves Steven very much, and she wants him to become the king, so her uncle and her started to help Steven by building relationships with the emperor's officers. Because of that, Cao Cao killed her... Poor girl, she completely changed to a better woman after she married to Steven, and she wants to spent the rest of her life with him and support him, but because of that, she died!

The fourth one is Steven's teacher ?
He is also a very smart person, also the best friend of Cao Cao. However he got killed by Sima Yi, who do not allow him to exist, because Steven's teacher is very smart, and he always support Steven.
The fifthe one is Cao Cao , in the history, he is evil, but he is also a hero. In this series, the producers tried to make Cao Cao a better man. Cao Cao has a very big ambition as well, and he knew Moses is the only one that can finish his job and be the king, so he had to give the power to Moses even thoughhe likes Steven more. Cao Cao killed so many people because of Moses, because he needs to clear out any difficulties that Moses might encounter in the future. However, Cao Cao did not realized there is a more ambition guy behind Moses, which is Sima Yi. When Cao Cao realized that, he wants Moses to kill Sima Yi, but Moses would not do it, that makes Cao Cao so angry and died... Poor man, hetried so hard to work out a future for Moses, but Moses would not kill the man who is going to destroy everything for Cao family...

Thesixth one is the second brother , Moses poisoned him! I can't believe he killed his own brother just like that! Poor guy, he has a wife and a daughter waiting for him, but he can never come home!

The last one, the most emotional one perhaps, which is the one and only Yun Fok , her entire life is a tragic! (I will mention that more later) Sonija and Sima Yi made up the rumor that Yun Fok's son is Steven's son, and Yun Fok is still in love with Steven, that makes Moses decided to poison Yun Fok to death! Yun Fok knew about it, but she still drink the poison, so that she can protect her son, she wants to use her death to prove her son is Moses' real son...

- How Come Factor ?
How can Kwok Husan be so evil all of the sudden? I mean, at the beginning, she was very nice and saved Ada many times, that's why Ada and her becomes sisters. All of the sudden, she is in love with Steven, Steven rejected her, and all of the sudden she changed... I think she changed way so fast.

FAVORITES ?
- Cast ?
Ada Choi ?
As I said above, Ada did really well in this series

- Character ?Ada's Yun Fok ?
Okey, Yun Fok is such a tragic character, she is way so perfect, way so smart, and way so kind! Because of that, she has to go through a tragic life. Her story is like the tragic tale of the fairy Lok Sun, who is well known as the fairy in the Lok River. Lok Sun was punished into the mortal world for being the cause of rift between her husband and another god. It is not hard to guess that Yun Fok is the reincarnation of Lok Sun and will have a similar fate. Yun Fok is in love with Steven and even agreed to marry him, however Cao Cao chose Moses to be the king, and Cao Cao wants Ada to marry Moses, because he wants her to help Moses, and to advice him, remind him of kindness, also the main reason is to protect Steven Ada had to accept the marriage and helps Moses, however, Moses did not treat Ada well. After Sonija also becomes Moses' wife, Moses begins to treat Sonija better because Sonija likes to use tricks. Poor Ada, who is slowly lost faith in her husband and her friend Sonija... At the end, she died because of the two, poor girl!

Steven Ma's Cao Zhi ?
Cao Zhi is just like Ada, really smart, really perfect and really kind. Because of his kindness, Cao Cao could not gives the power to Steven even though Steven is his favorite son. Cao Cao knew if he gave Steven the power, Moses will not able to give up, he will try to destroy everything. For Steven's protection, Cao Cao gave the power to Moses and let Steven's true love Ada also marry to Moses! Poor guy, he had to face his true love as his sister in law! Steven married to Cui Fok, who is truly in love with him, but she was killed by Cao Cao because of the way she is trying to help Steven... Later, he had to face the fact his brother is going to kill him, but he uses his intelligence to produce the very famous "seven-steps" poem, and that poem finally makes Moses regret about his way of pushing away his brothers...

- Couple ?
Ada Choi and Steven Ma
?These two would be perfect together, however, they can not be together because one of them is the most beautiful girl, the other one is the smartest son of the Cao family... Their destiny meant to separate them apart...

- Scene ?
Here comes the list: ?1. When Steven propose to Ada ?2. When all the pity factors (as I listed above) died, emotional scenes! ?3. Everytime you see Ada and Steven together, they are the perfect couple... but they can not be together... so pity for them!

LEAST FAVORITES
 ?- Cast ?Sonija Kwok ?
Sorry to all the Sonija fans, I really don't think Sonija can act. I hate the way she cries or talk. Her performances skills have disapproved since "A Step Into the Past"... I don't know why the TVB producers decided to let her play in a villain role.. Her acting skills are not that good to be a villain.

- Character ?
Sonija's Kwok Husan ?
As I said above, you will hate this character to the bone. Usually, I enjoyed the villain, because they made the stories interesting, but this character is just too stupid and too cruel. Plus, her ending is a little better than I thought, she deserves a much worse ending that just illness...

Moses Chan's Chao Pi ?
Moses' acting skills are average, he is good at being bad, like the character he played in Armed Reaction III. In this series, his character is not that enjoyable...

- Couple ?
Sonija and Moses ?I hate to see these two together! They make me sick!

- Scene ?
Everytime you see Moses and Sonija together!

COMMENTS
?Overall, I really enjoyed this series, because it is emotional, it is tragic, I like tragic stories ~,~ I think TVB did a good job of producing the series, the outfits are wonderful, especially the girls' outfits. There are characters you will love and hate, there are performances you will love and hate, there are scenes you will / might cry, there are scenes you will hate. It is well balanced...

IS IT WORTH WATCHING?
?For all the Steven and Ada fans, this is a must see! All the Sonija fans, you might like to skip this one, because it might offend your feelings!

一直想抒文表情都打住，前人們的評論已經(jīng)趨于完美，我已倍感詞窮。只今重讀《淮南子》撩起花神翩若驚鴻，遺情想像，顧望懷愁。不禁，情不禁浮想翩翩……

一、初見：出水芙蓉 翩若驚鴻

“江南有二喬，河北甄宓俏。”曹家三公子曹植對媲美二喬的“俏甄宓”心儀已久，而大公子曹丕卻嗤之以鼻，皆因紅顏禍水。窈窕淑女，君子好求。曹植這位優(yōu)游宴樂的貴公子，冒亂世之危，從許都特地來到鄴城只為一睹芳容。他透過風箏向她傳達傾慕之情，聰明如她讀到詩歌即猜出寫詩之人乃曹植這位名滿天下的才子。愛情之美，即在于彼此心有靈犀一點通。
在風雨飄搖的鄴城，甄宓驚鴻一瞥，翩然離去。曹植在《洛神賦》中寫道“翩若驚鴻，婉若游龍。榮曜秋菊，華茂春松。仿佛兮若輕云之蔽月，飄兮若流風之回雪。遠而望之，皎若太陽升朝霞；迫而察之，灼若芙蓉出淥波。”一個絕世美女在他筆下如一朵出水芙蓉從碧波中升起，隨著波濤，輕悠悠、飄忽忽地來到岸邊。美人離去，悵然若失的曹植回到了許都，卻未料從此魂索夢牽一生……

二、再見：亂世水仙 絕世獨立

別夢依依，再見時甄宓已憑卓越才華和過人膽識被接入曹府并被曹操尊為上賓。蛾兒雪柳黃金縷，笑語盈盈暗香去。眾里尋她千百度，驀然回首，那人卻在，燈火闌珊處。
曹植手執(zhí)初見甄宓時贈給她的風箏悵惘，這是甄宓在絕境之中，她所救之待女郭儇冒險持此信物來求曹植搭救甄宓一家。而他還未來得及施救，她卻已被不忍對她下殺手的曹丕帶入曹家。這是不是命運一開始的鋪排呢？他在她命懸一線最關鍵的時刻沒有趕到現(xiàn)場，沒有機會上演英雄救美的絕佳劇情，所以在最后他也來遲一步，沒有及時阻止她喝下那杯毒酒。
近水樓臺先得月，曹植積極地為甄宓張羅一切。而此時甄宓雖在曹家為客，卻對自己的局勢有著清晰的認識。她小心翼翼地教導家人牢記“寄人蘺下”因有分寸，克已奉禮從不逾越半分。盡管如此還是避免不了紛爭，然這正是人生，人生在世，豈無是非？一個擁有絕世容顏的女人如果只有華麗的外表那么只是花瓶，豈能贏得歷史上著名“三曹”（曹操、曹丕、曹植）的垂青與憐愛？
甄宓之所以是甄宓，就在于她不僅明眸若雪，而且知書達禮，更重要是內(nèi)心豁達，品德高尚。有才有貌已屬難得，更何況有德乎？她讓“文韜武略，亂世英雄”的曹操與她惺惺相惜，讓“自命清高，不近女色”的曹丕為她朝思暮想，更讓“骨氣奇高，詞采華茂”的曹植為她費盡心思。

三、初戀：彩蝶戀花 金風玉露

父子三人皆為卿狂，她為難而亦步亦趨。思量再思量，她最終選定心中佳偶——那一位只關心她身體安康而多于關心她容貌的曹植。觸摸著曹植贈給她的玉鏤金帶枕，觸手生溫。芳心暗許的她深信文武全才而心地仁厚的曹植是與她舉案齊眉的“梁鴻”。
他們也確實心心相印，度過了一段琴瑟和諧的浪漫時光。曹植在《洛神賦》深情地寫道“體迅飛鳧，飄忽若神，凌波微步，羅襪生塵。動無常則，若危若安，進止難期，若往若還。轉眄流精，光潤玉顏，含辭未吐，氣若幽蘭。華容婀娜，令我忘餐?！彼麖漠嬀碇佐嫒晦D身，手執(zhí)折扇瀟灑落于她面前，在眾人注目之下向她求婚。她持手巾羞澀地半掩面，卻又對他嫣然一笑，那幾乎是她一生中最美的一次笑容……
傾城一笑傾倒了曹植，他才思如涌吟出了“和樂琴瑟，永賦衷情；愿為比翼，展翅高翔！”當他執(zhí)起甄宓的手深情地說，“宓兒，你這一生一世，就交給子建來照顧你，好嗎？”甄宓終于不再矜持含羞地點了點頭。那是《洛神》最美的一刻。


四、離合：如花美眷 似水流年
美麗總是短暫的，青春愛情總不遂人意。在世子之爭中，性情中人的曹植終敵不過矯情造作的曹丕。而他失去的不僅僅是世子之位，更失去了甄宓。因為曹操認為甄宓的品行最適合許配給世子，強硬拆散了兩情相悅的曹植和甄宓。問世間，情是何物，直教生死相許？曹植與甄宓拋下所有私奔。情義兩難全，曹植與曹丕終兵刃相見。


甄宓為了保全曹植終下嫁曹丕，而曹植也不得不遵從父命娶了崔氏。面對現(xiàn)實，曹植和甄宓都落淚了，我們說男人哭了，是因為他真的愛了；女人哭了，是因為她真的放棄了。
天意弄人，本已決心與妻子崔氏長相廝守的曹植卻遭遇崔氏因“衣繡違制”而被曹操賜死。多情不似無情苦，多情才子曹植哭自己愧為人夫，滿腹經(jīng)綸卻寫不出對妻子的悼詞。
羅衣著破前香在，在這個時候，甄宓來到了他的身邊，此時她已是他的大嫂。相顧無言，惟有淚千行。她為他代筆抒寫崔氏的悼文，他悲苦交集而淚流滿面。不多時他便要離開許都啟程到封地，古時不似今日交通發(fā)達，別時容易見時難。


兒行千里母擔憂，曹植辭行那一天，他的母親卞夫人哭得肝腸寸斷。離別苦，就中更有癡兒女。甄宓心亂如麻，與曹植兩相回望，禁不住淚眼哽咽。黯然銷魂者，唯別而已矣。曹植離開了從小成長的許都，帶走了甄宓對他的深情和曹丕對他的怨恨。多情自古傷離別，更那堪，冷落清秋節(jié)。

五、決別：人如花飛 鏡花水月

轉眼過了半生，歲月更換人間。曹操逝世，曹丕繼魏王位，不久稱帝，甄宓成了母儀天下的皇后。舊恨常在，除之為快，曹丕借母之令迫甄宓寫信騙得曹植來許都。昔日出言為論，下筆成章的曹植，意志消沉而才思受阻，未見甄宓信中示警而欣然來朝，步入了曹丕的陷井。
曹丕命曹植在七步之內(nèi)以“兄弟”為題作詩一首，并不準出現(xiàn)“兄弟”二字，否則處死。眼見曹植苦思不得，甄宓憶起了青春年少曹植向她求婚時，曾因她嫣然一笑而即興賦得好詩。殿堂之上，已近中年的她顫抖地執(zhí)起手中的水仙手巾，對著曹植含淚的嫣然一笑，這一笑是甄宓一生中最苦的一笑。這一笑將她推上了絕路，但這一笑卻喚回了曹植無窮的才思，他如訴如泣念道“煮豆燃豆萁，豆在釜中泣。本是同根生，相煎何太急？”七步成詩，文采獨步天下，情深意切，辛酸之情溢于言表。聞者嘆息，聽者掩淚，曹丕憶起昔日“兄友弟恭”動了側隱之心滿臉淚痕……


斷煙離緒，多年未見千言萬語未道盡卻天人永隔。甄宓殿堂上對曹植嫣然一笑，終成了她的催命符。她平靜地接受了曹丕賜的毒酒，沉思往事立殘陽。面對將失去的至愛，悲痛欲絕的曹植對曹丕叫道：“既然你這么不珍惜她，為什么當初還要娶她？”愛一個人不一定要擁有，但擁有一個人就一定要好好的去愛她。美人淚斷人腸，甄宓最后深深地看了一眼曹植，帶著無限的哀怨死在了曹丕懷中……

六、追思：所謂伊人 在水一方

最后，曹植抱著自他送甄宓那日起便沒有離開過甄宓的玉鏤金帶枕告別許都。蒹葭蒼蒼，白露為霜。所謂伊人，在水一方！當他泛舟洛水，忽見甄宓幻化成洛水神仙，白衣飄飄、笑靨如花、眼波柔情流動在水中央為他翩翩起舞……思綿綿而增慕，夜耿耿而不寐，他寫下了千古傳誦的《感鄄賦》（即《洛神賦》）后隨她投入了洛水……
——流水落花春去也，天上人間。

后記：洛神轉世，宓妃留枕，河伯強娶，后羿奪愛的神話流傳于世，而甄宓與曹植的愛情故事眾說紛紜，至今無結論。淮南子、太平廣記還在訴說著多情的陳思王曹植，李商隱也在《東阿王》感曹植“君王不得為天子，半為當時賦洛神?！?千年以后，他和她已在歷史的云煙中飄遠。留給我們的是無限的追思，可望而不可即，盈盈一水間，脈脈不得語。