1 ) U can’t always get what u want
第四季季終集第12集臨近結(jié)束的時(shí)候,響起的是曾經(jīng)收錄在第二季原聲碟里滾石樂隊(duì)的《You can’t always get what you want》。因?yàn)橹斑@首歌已經(jīng)在自己的歌單里輪回出現(xiàn)了多次,所以如同唱詩班般的和聲“I saw her today at the reception...”出現(xiàn)的瞬間,我便明了到頭來這還是在陽光溫暖眾生淫靡的加州的一個(gè)輪回。
當(dāng)然其實(shí)導(dǎo)演之前便有過不少關(guān)于輪回的暗示。再次出現(xiàn)的給Hank口交的金發(fā)碧眼的修女、喝醉的Hank溺水于泳池被“黑耶穌”救起、幻想里Becca給Hank的紙條上寫的是“Home sweet home”。風(fēng)流落魄的作家和深愛的女人女兒之間的故事似乎繞了整整四季之后,又回到了原點(diǎn)?!粋€(gè)細(xì)節(jié),Hank用稿費(fèi)重新買了一輛敞篷黑色跑車后,用撬棍敲碎了右前燈,似乎是為了裝作同以前載著Karen和Becca在種滿棕櫚樹被陽光染成橘色的加州海濱大道上飛馳的好日子并無差別。
但當(dāng)然不是。深夜里這四人在Karen家的庭院宿醉抽煙感嘆原本好好的一切怎么就變成了現(xiàn)在這個(gè)樣子。Karen說當(dāng)你知道這很可能是跟眼前這個(gè)人的最后一次做愛,那么是多悲傷。Hank笑了,他依然風(fēng)流,但也終于開始為之前作的惡果贖罪。
因?yàn)閺?qiáng)奸幼女被判三年緩刑。
“你那是被人坑了?!?/p>
“我很早之前就把自己給坑了。(fucked up)”
Hank最后開著跑車一個(gè)人疾馳時(shí),我在想他是不是去追同新男友Ben離去的Karen呢,只是即使如此,她還會(huì)不會(huì)如同當(dāng)初逃婚時(shí)義無反顧地跳上后座呢?“我以前以為我們是天生一對(duì)。后來才發(fā)現(xiàn)是一個(gè)漫長的噩夢(mèng)。”
這就是他倆之間的困境。我想要的東西你給不了,同時(shí)我又不能改變你、拯救你的這么一種困境。身陷囹圄,愛再不能成為繼續(xù)如此的說辭。
所以結(jié)尾響起“You can’t always get what you want ”時(shí)一切便都得以解釋,這也大概是這季在七季中評(píng)分達(dá)到最高的8.5的原因。 (露肉同首季的新鮮感已經(jīng)“令人厭倦”、配角的表演張力遠(yuǎn)不足第二季巔峰Lew給人超越主角般的魅力)
那便是:大家都覺得,圓滿了。雖然沒有得到所想要的,但這季的結(jié)束莫名給人一種圓滿的感覺。
正是這樣,因?yàn)榧窘K曲完整附歌的詞便是這樣寫道
2 ) Just the letter... that made me weep.
To my dear beautiful daughter,
I'm writing you a letter, that's right, a good old fashioned letter. It's a lost art really, like handjobs...Shit. I have a confession to make: I didn't like you very much at first. You were just this little annoying little blob, you smelled nice, most of the time. But you didn't seem to have much interest in me, which of course I found vaguely insulting. It was just you and your mom against the world, funny how some things never change. So I cruised along, doing my thing, acting the fool, not really understanding how being a parent changes you. And I don’t remember the exact moment everything changed. I just know that it did. One minute I was impenetrable, nothing could touch me, the next my heart was somehow beating outside my chest, exposed to the elements. Loving you has been the most profound, intense and painful experience of my life. In fact it's been almost too much to bear. As your father, I made a silent vow to protect you from the world. Never realized I was the one who would end up hurting you the most. When I flash forward, my heart breaks. Mostly because I can't imagine you speaking of me with any sort of pride. How could you? Your father is a child in a man's body, he cares for nothing and everything at the same time, noble in thought weak in action. Something has to change, something has to give. It's getting dark, too dark to see...
3 ) Does it really have to be this sad?
還清楚地記得看完第一季時(shí)的欣喜,帶著眼淚,微笑著看著穿著婚紗的Karen跳進(jìn)Hank的車?yán)?三個(gè)人開心地就像童話故事...
當(dāng)時(shí)心里真的不知道有多感謝仁慈的編劇,雖然劇中那么曲折,但結(jié)尾卻美的讓人甚至懷疑是出現(xiàn)了幻覺.
那時(shí)候甚至還覺得,這只不過是個(gè)臺(tái)詞很睿智的討巧的俗套故事.
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看這個(gè)劇的整個(gè)過程都在虐心...每次看到Karen和Hank和好的時(shí)候,都精神緊張,因?yàn)檫@種美好的假象很快就會(huì)被打破,而每次的爆發(fā)都會(huì)比上一次更加慘烈.一次又一次的打擊,都是對(duì)堅(jiān)持的無情考驗(yàn). 就像Hank說的,I can't keep apologizing for something I can't change. All I can do is keep moving forward and try to become someone that you can love again. 始終是這樣的,現(xiàn)在的感情一如當(dāng)初兩人初在一起時(shí)的樣子,我相信一直都沒有變,doesn't matter how she's mad at him, at least she knows that he's out there and that someday she will see him again.
很喜歡那個(gè)一個(gè)回憶的片段,兩個(gè)人初識(shí),在得知Karen懷孕了之后,hank留下的那封信,淡淡的只言片語...
Dear Karen,
If you're reading this, it means I actually worked up the courage to mail it so good for me. You don't know me very well, but if you get me started I tend to go on and on about how hard the writing is for me. This is the hardest thing I ever had to write. There no easy way to say this so I'll just say it,
I met someone. It was an accident, I wasn't looking for it, I wasn't one that make it was a perfect storm. She said one thing and I said another and the next thing I knew I wanted to spend the rest of my life in the middle of that conversation. Now there's feeling in my gut that she might be the one. She completely nuts in a way that makes me smile highly neurotic, a great deal of maintenance acquired.
She is you Karen, that's the good news. The bad news is that I don't know how to be with you right now, and that scares the shit out of me. Because if I am not with you right now I have this feeling we will get lost out there. It's a big bad world full of twist and turns and people have a way of blinking and missing the moment. The moment that could've changed everything.
I don't know what's going on with us and I can't tell you should waste a leap of faith on the likes of me. But damn you smell good, like home and you make excellent coffee that has to count for something. Call me!
Unfaithfully yours,
Hank Moody
眼淚留下的時(shí)候,我自己都沒發(fā)覺...
S4開始Hank就因?yàn)閮?nèi)疚,本來想麻痹自己內(nèi)心,但卻因?yàn)?ill effects of selfmedicating在迷迷糊糊的傷痛中寫下了給becca的信...
To my dear beautiful daughter.
I'm writing you a letter,that's right,a good old fashioned letter.
It's a lost art really,like handjobs...Shit.(then canceled this line)
I have a confession to make:
I didn't like you very much at first
You were just this little annoying little blob,
You smelled nice,most of the time.
But you didn't seem to have much interest in me.
Which of course I found vaguely insulting.
It was just you and your mom against the world,funny how somethings never change.
So I cruised along,doing my thing,acting the fool, not really understanding how being a parent changes you.
And I don't remember the exact moment everything changed.
I just know that it did.
One minute I was impenetrable,nothing could touch me,
the next my heart was somehow beating outside my chest,exposed to the elements.
Loving you has been the most profound,intense and painful experience of my life.
In fact it's been almost too much to bear.
As your father,I made a silent vow to protect you from the world.
Never realised I was the one who would end up hurting you the most.
When I flash forward my heart breaks.
Mostly because I can't imagine you speaking of me with any sort of pride.
How could you?
Your father is a child in a man's body,he cares for nothing and everything at the same time.
Noble in thought weak in action.
Something has to change,something has to give.
It's getting dark,too dark to see...
本沒想到S4一開始就煽情,但接下來就猶如傷口還沒愈合又撕裂開來一般痛苦...看著Hank無言地轉(zhuǎn)身,看著心愛的人就在咫尺,而撩動(dòng)發(fā)梢的人不是自己時(shí),那一刻眼神低垂,說不盡的痛楚此刻都糾結(jié)在心頭了.
I will go if you ask me to...
I will stay if you dare...
(一季就糾結(jié)這么一個(gè)trial...真讓人無語~)
...
...
S4結(jié)束了,
Hank在法庭上出現(xiàn)幻覺那一刻,想著自己穿著號(hào)服,關(guān)在鐵籠子里的樣子,有那么一秒,穿越到了Agent Mulder,
原來那一刻,暴露了Hank其實(shí)無比脆弱的防線,聽到3年的字樣就已經(jīng)支撐不住了,可這又怎么能怪他呢,他自己都說,我只是蜷在大人殼子里的孩子,管不住自己,不想硬撐,想改變,卻沒辦法發(fā)自內(nèi)心.
所以,只追求自己想要的,
后面的'最后的晚餐'很是給力,發(fā)現(xiàn)每一季的最后一集都能點(diǎn)亮整個(gè)一季.everyone is telling the truth.
很贊這個(gè)晚餐上由Rob Lowe推動(dòng)的高潮,其實(shí)charlie說的話不也正是hank想說的嘛
I slept with all those women,for what?!
for trying to forget her, but it's impossible.
so,I will always love her.
緊接著the baby,the stabbed,girl's fighting,the lonely aftermath of the chaos,一個(gè)接一個(gè),很是過癮.
到這里,我覺得這一季的結(jié)尾已經(jīng)很圓滿,很點(diǎn)題了.
Ben下水救hank,hank腦子里想的是black jesus,這情節(jié)就好象S1開篇時(shí)候,hank做夢(mèng)夢(mèng)見在教堂里的ask for a hand job的bill;
ben就像一個(gè)年輕版的bill,帶著個(gè)叛逆搖滾范兒的mia...
hank開著車,帶著自己的打字機(jī),開進(jìn)海報(bào)的那一刻,不也就是S1開篇時(shí)候hank開著那輛破車,狂奔在公路上,急速駛過寫著Crazy Little Thing Called Love的映射嘛.
...
已經(jīng)一個(gè)輪回了哦,原來折騰了那么一大圈,他還在那里,她也始終沒有離開.
實(shí)在想不出S5會(huì)講些什么了.
P.S.喜歡hank在片場(chǎng)推到自己椅子的動(dòng)作,這也是為什么一直迷hank的原因,
doesn't give a shit.
this is my story,this is my life.
you appreciate it, you don't,
it doesn't matter.
4 ) 人生的每個(gè)階段,好好珍惜
曾經(jīng)有過的最溫馨最快樂的時(shí)刻,那種感覺可以和兒時(shí)童年快樂一起銘記幾十年,帶入墳?zāi)梗總€(gè)人都有吧,雖然故事不盡相同。雖然現(xiàn)在一切都過去了,但追回,或者說重新找回,更確切的說重新建立那種快樂生活,并好好珍惜它,成為人生前進(jìn)的唯一動(dòng)力,我不知道這是不是個(gè)不切實(shí)際的幻想,就像未來的那淡淡的溫暖的陽光,時(shí)不時(shí)照在心底那塊朦朧區(qū)域,生活還這樣繼續(xù), 我希望所希望的這點(diǎn)東西不是徒然。
5 ) 是宿命
隔了3年,又一次流下同樣的淚水,即便我練就刀槍不入,這無形的宿命殺手卻更狠狠地刺中我心。若3年后依然舊事重現(xiàn),那這宿命論既是將我釘死在十字架的鐵釘。
6 ) 寫在結(jié)束之后
晚上回來的時(shí)候雨開始下得很急,雨滴噼里啪啦的砸在車窗上,好像砸碎了自己就可以獲得新生一樣。我對(duì)司機(jī)師傅說:“能把副駕駛的雨刷也打開么?”,師傅尷尬的笑笑了說:“那邊的掉了?!笨粗挥晁谏w著有些模糊的燈光有些無奈的我下意識(shí)的掏出手機(jī)給一個(gè)人發(fā)了條短信:這個(gè)時(shí)候應(yīng)該點(diǎn)一首《北京下雨了》。并不是想得到回應(yīng)或是怎樣,只是覺得,這個(gè)時(shí)候的心情對(duì)方應(yīng)該會(huì)懂的吧。
莫名的就想起Hank Moody。想起第四季結(jié)束的時(shí)候他一個(gè)人開著車朝著看不到目的地的遠(yuǎn)方駛?cè)?。那個(gè)時(shí)候的他在想些什么?是什么都沒有想還是在想念那個(gè)他注定忘不掉的女人。他對(duì)他的女兒說:“我有預(yù)感,這次你和你媽媽回來有什么就會(huì)改變了?!蔽也恢喇?dāng)Hank聽到自己最愛的女人要和另一個(gè)男人出去玩兒的時(shí)候是如何克制自己的。他的心里一定有什么東西倒塌了吧。你個(gè)混蛋,你怎么還能那么淡定,怎么能只是問了問是怎么回事?你最愛的女人要和別的男人出去了!他們牽手,他們親吻,他們上床。而你只能跟個(gè)傻逼似的自己把自己灌大。
可是,還能怎樣呢?你傷了她那么多次,你讓她失望了那么多次,她要的你都給不了。難道還不允許她去尋找自己的幸福嗎?你愛她,她愛你,又如何?
所以你開始酗酒,開始和各種各樣的女人上床。你想,也許喝大了就能忘記她了吧??蓻]想到的是當(dāng)你醉得不省人事的時(shí)候腦子里浮現(xiàn)出的都是她的身影。你想,也許和別的女人在一起和別的女人上床就能忘記她了吧??蓻]想到的是當(dāng)那個(gè)女人癱倒在你懷里的時(shí)候你滿腦子想的都是如果這個(gè)時(shí)候抱著的是她那該多好。
總是會(huì)從Moody的身上看到自己的影子。所以看到Charlie在飯桌上為自己也是替Hank說出“I slept with all those women,for what?! for trying to forget her, but it's impossible. so,I will always love her.”的時(shí)候 心里像是被針扎一樣的難受。因?yàn)樵谀硞€(gè)深夜許久沒有聯(lián)系的她在qq上蹦出來問我在北京怎么樣。屏幕這邊的我壓抑住一切情感對(duì)她說還不錯(cuò),上班下班看個(gè)演出偶爾勾搭個(gè)姑娘。屏幕那邊的她只淡淡的說了一句小日子還不錯(cuò)嘛。我知道一切都過去了。我知道無論我做什么也沒辦法拉回時(shí)間。我知道這個(gè)。我知道那個(gè)。我知道一切??蔀槭裁串?dāng)我看到我說出我覺得可以刺激到你的話你那淡淡的反應(yīng)的時(shí)候我還是那么難過。
其實(shí)Charlie的這番話只有經(jīng)歷過這種事情的人才明白包含著多大的愛吧。我知道這種行為也許很自私,也許對(duì)人不公平,也許得不到別人的理解??墒菬o所謂。我只知道我在盡我的全力去忘記你??墒俏以嚵诉@么久我還是忘不掉你,那么我只能繼續(xù)愛著你。這是現(xiàn)在我唯一能做的事情了,所以請(qǐng)不要?jiǎng)儕Z它。
說起來,那天晚上她還問我,如果我結(jié)婚了怎么辦?我笑笑說還能怎么辦?忍了唄。要不你讓我怎么辦?你以為是在美國??!神父說如果沒有人不同意我就宣布這兩人正式結(jié)為夫妻的時(shí)候我站起來大聲說我不同意!然后拉著你的手就跑。搶婚都搶得那么拉風(fēng)。你真以為我是Moody?。∧憬Y(jié)婚的時(shí)候我開著車沖進(jìn)會(huì)場(chǎng)然后說Karen跟我走!你就穿著婚紗跳進(jìn)車?yán)镂覀儍蓚€(gè)人頭也不回開離那座城市。
別扯淡了。
Moody愛著Karen。我愛著你。
可Moody有編劇。
我呢?我該拿你怎么辦。
還沒看 急不可待的先打上五星 我等待了整整一年的劇
習(xí)慣性跟進(jìn),劇集生理性陽痿,不太可能有救。
第七集亮了,結(jié)尾好棒
You Can't Always Get What You Want
這只男淫蕩的回來了,真心給五星
明年繼續(xù)~
對(duì)文藝界的嘲諷更犀利了啊這季
除了胡搞瞎搞還是胡搞瞎搞。奈何Duchovny狂蕩不羈還真像那么回事兒。
最后一集總是各種“經(jīng)典”。。。- -
已該結(jié)束了 so sad
稍稍低于前三季的水準(zhǔn),表面各種大尺度,內(nèi)核卻保守傳統(tǒng)。
shitty lucky bastard...姐感覺這個(gè)結(jié)局可以作為整個(gè)劇的finale了,后來發(fā)覺還有第五季,還能講啥呢,繼續(xù)糜爛咯...
我還是很喜歡這個(gè)劇的…
生活最拉風(fēng)莫過于你混蛋過后還忘不了那個(gè)女人,結(jié)果那女人還真跟你跑了
六集閱。。。。??磥砦沂谴蟠蟮凸牢缫故召M(fèi)檔美劇的口味了。。。
showtime出品的你們還有神馬要問的?
重口味文藝范兒。話說Hank 的生活狀態(tài)應(yīng)該是令國內(nèi)眾文青朝思暮想的模范吧?……我也想當(dāng)這樣的作家。
showtime最愛出產(chǎn)三觀不正的優(yōu)質(zhì)劇了。很多女觀眾很愛男主角的原因,說白了就是不犯賤者非婦女。
@香吉也士天然卷 沒什么意思了 但床伴越來越好看了
你可廢了人家不少看電影的時(shí)間呀 為了那些無窮無盡的葷段子 還是給你五星吧